2 years and 9 months ago my confidence was completely stripped from me. My self-worth was dashed. I lost all joy. When this happened and I recognize that I was in a hole, I sought out professional help. I got to the point where I was able to get through the day without crying. Ever since that day I have just been going through the motions of day-to-day life. I wake up, I go to work, I come home, I go to bed. Next day: repeat.
Over the past few years I recognize that I am NOT the self I used to be. I was confident, funny, silly, brave, and happy. Every so often I see little glimpses of it in myself still but most of it is gone.
Tonight I came to the realization that this cannot continue any longer. I've become a hermit where I used to be the social director of my groups. I've gained so much weight I am officially obese obese. My house is a mess. My dogs are bored out of their mind. And I've lost all joy. No more. This has got to change.
This blog is going to record my efforts to reinvent myself in a way that I can be happy again. I want to be confident when I meet a new person. I want to love myself again. I want to find Joy in the little things that I used to love. So, feel free to join me on this adventure. This so called reclaiming of Renee.
I welcome any positive thoughts or ideas you might have to help me on my way. And I hope that this blog will help anybody who's feeling similar to me.
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